Notes off the Desk

I am cleaning my desk at home. My relatives are coming this week, and I might as well look presentable. Here are all the little notes off the desk before I throw them away.

This first bunch are from a meeting I had in Madison in March.

Blog About:
* The starfish phone and the disembodied voice.
* The people who make you be most you. How Ellen brings out ALL of me - not just work me or social me. She can see all of me.
* Sense of Place and being called to a place.
* My beginning with Cube and Hutch and how far back I went with this project.
* About Madison.
* Changing the memories of Chicago and reclaiming places that were painful in the past, MN and Chicago.
* Recount the early AM and watching the sun rise over the capital. The determined feeling of living here.
* What is it I am looking for here?

Then I have a column on the same piece of paper titled "Muse About"
* Core values
* Ask BK where I should focus my attention with classes. Where do I want to go?
* Sitting on boards for art projects.
* What work do I really like to do?
* Do I want a PMP?
* What is the nature of management vs. project management?
* Review my volunteerism. Habitat for Humanity?
* What are my core competencies? What could be strengthened?
* What interests me? Outside and inside my life?
* Where is the confidence in my voice? When does it come? What am I talking about?
* What are the skills I feel I don't have?
* Where do I bug myself?

On the back of this page I wrote notes about the HBO characters:

Scene in lounge needs a connection to the RPSC side. They are a gang of white guys.

Characteristics of JH: He can keep every small detail in his head. Sits in meetings w/out notes. Confident - no job fear. Playful. Razor sharp wit.

Here are more from the pile . . . most aren't dated.

Blog about regaining the desire to learn.

Blog about my station self that is actually a hologram that is part of the building and not actually a separate being.

Blog about why are we not the 1960's.

Blog about admitting what is happening to us and the words retool, fall back and regroup. Feeling the advent of all my new skills in the face of my new boss.

Blog about leadership, the glow inside all of us, and the phrase "Talk at you later."

(Dated 2 May 2008) Blog about changing blogs, about difference between needing to jump start my creativity and self expression and now needing to noodle through where I am and what I am thinking about. Where I want to be going. Moved to do self help and I couldn't speak freely with the past readership. Hidden blog . . .

Journal about options, HBO, Hutch, This, PMO Training.

(Dated 16 May 2008) Blog about varience class and my new reaction to the information since getting away from scheduling. How long it took for this stuff to make sense and mean anything. How I had to move closer to management to make any of this mean anything. How hysterical I was at the transition to the PMO.

(Dated 16 May 2008) Think about the concept of bubbling up. Relax into the truths I am feeling. Admit my shit.

(Dated 16 May 2008) Blog about the PMO trainer. Tea pot method of presentation. Pounding on the table. Voice raise.

Most recently:
* Blog about conservative bullies and how I was just talked to at work.
* Blog about NPR painting a grand picture of doom, veggie story this morning.
* The gloom that is hanging all over me.
* Reading my book with no triumph of human greatness.
* The Reagan reference in the training, also Colin Powell, Thatcher and Roosevelt.
* Blog about how the NPP failure freaked me out about leadership.

The next three are quotes I wrote down while watching movies:

From Philadelphia Story:
Sidney Kidd: "I understand we understand each other."
Dexter: "Quite."

From Joe vs the Volcano:
"Dear God, who's name I do not know. Thank you for my life. I forgot . . . how . . . BIG. Thank you. Thank you for my life" -- Joe Banks.

Patricia: "Joe, nobody knows anything. We'll take this leap and we'll see. We'll jump and we'll see. That's life."
Joe Banks: "What are we hoping for here?"
Patricia: "A miracle."